
I was standing alone in the party in a corner. The music was loud, I could barely hear my own voice. Everyone was drinking, I wasn’t. Everyone was smoking weed, I wasn’t. I simply decided not to get toxicated that night. After all I’m here against my will. My friends begged me to come and they brought me here forcefully. And I haven’t seen them for the past 2 hours. Then a random guy I’ve never seen in my entire life leans his elbow on my shoulder. He was so drunk, he points at a girl from across the room and says ‘yo bro -barfs- that girl is is is is eye fucking u duuuuddee haha…. -hiccup- lucky u” then he walks away. The girl saw him pointing right at her. She blushed but she never looked away. We kept eye contact for a few seconds, then I ctook my eyes off. I’m not dealing with this. It’s not going anywhere anyways, just pointless eye fucking….. ok I’ll look at her one last time. As soon as look at her direction I see her walking up to me. Oh shit! This is not good. I’m so not ready for small talk with a girl I’ve never met or seen before. Specially a girl as pretty as her. She gets close enough to reach my hand and grab it. She pulled me. And I followed. She was leading me somewhere. I don’t know where, but I’m going. I don’t know what I’m doing. This is not me.. for the past as long as I could remember I’ve rejected every single girl who tried to flirt with me. I just didn’t like relationships and I didn’t like where they usually led to. But right now, this girl is leading me to idk where and I’m js following like a dog. She walked me up the stairs, fast. She walked me into a room, pushed me inside and locked the door after she got in. She looked at me and said ‘r u ready?’ Is she talking about sex??? I AM SO NOT READY! IVE NEVER BEEN READY! ‘Ready for what?’ I said. She started removing her close saying there isn’t much time cs she promised her dad to be home by 2am, and it literally 1:15am now. She was extremely drunk she pulled up shirt telling me to take off my clothes. I looked at her upper body since she only removed her shirt and kept the bra on. She was hot as fuck. I’ve never seen a girl and thought she was hot before. Not once in my entire life. The only times I feel horny is when I wake up with a morning wood. And I don’t imagine anything. Not even a woman. Her body was like it was carved by hands made from stars and carved her with gold, gems, and silver. Her waist was small, her boobs were the 3 times bigger than my fist. Her thighs were big, big enough to crush me. What the fuck? For the first time in my life I focus on every single detail on a girls body. She was blowing the sun hot. She walked up a few steps towards me but I realized… wait, she’s drunk, I’m sober. THIS IS NOT RIGHT. I snatched the bottle from her hand and started drinking. I finished the bottle and waited a few seconds for it kick in. But she pushed me on the bed. She was strong for a drunk girl. She climbed on top me and kissed my lips. This is not right, I’m not even the slightest bit drunk yet. Then she said ‘we’re gonna fuck so hard right now. I’m gonna take control’ she came in for another kiss but she missed my lips. She laid her head on my chest right under my chin and started softly snoring. Did she js pass out on top of me? What a fucking drag, I told myself. She placed a hand on my chest and adjusted her head’s position a little saying ‘nom nom nom’ in her sleep. I thought it was so cute before I told myself to snap out of it. A few minutes later I wrapped my arms around her as she slept on top of my chest. What the fuck am I doing?? 😭💔 this is so not me. What the hell am I feeling. I wish she never wakes up, but I want her to wake up so bad. I’m so not in control of myself right now and I do not like it at all. I open my eyes to the sun on my face. I sit up and look around the room. Where tf am I?? And then I remembered… THERE WAS A WHOLE ANGEL ON TOP OF MY CHEST LAST NIGHT. I got out of the room and immediately saw the girl. We locked eyes. She looked away so fast and rushed out of my sight. I do not like what’s going on to me right now. I’m so not in control of my feelings for the first time. Why did she run away??… wait. Ofc a girl like that would never get with me. She was so drunk now she’s probably disgusted. But that didn’t change anything in me. I still felt something I couldn’t understand.
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