I’m graduating in may this year with a bachelors in mechanical engineering. When I joined college I wasn’t ready I was a loser. Failed all my classes freshman fall. Put on academic probation, freshman spring I passed all of them but bad grades. So still probation. Sophomore fall I did a little better but since my gpa was already so low I was still in probation lol. So 1 1/2 years in probation. Sophomore spring, grinded like 12 hour days every day for the semester. It was the most mentally challenging thing I ever did. I had bad fundamentals and was desperate to stay in school. That was my first semester with actual A’s and B’s. Mind you sophomore spring is when you reach the hard classes and my fundamentals were already bad. Took a gap year , I was starting to have panic attacks even tho I did good and got out of probation (barely) so I took a gap year. Got an operator job at a CNC shop like 18hr. With overtime made 45k. I was able to pay off like 80% of my current debt (first 2 years...
My dad called me today. It had been so long since I’d last heard his voice, and a tear fell down my face as he spoke to me. He told me how much he missed me, how much he wished he could still be with me, and how much he wishes that I could be with him. He told me I could be with him. His voice broke over the phone. He sounded destroyed. The closest thing I can compare it to is how he sounded when mom died, the pain in his voice as he watched her writhe away in her hospital bed. Even still, during this call, he seemed to be even more distraught than then, more urgent and beckoning. I swore it felt as though he needed me. It was a bit of a shock. My dad was always the strongest man I knew. Our relationship had been built on respect and professionalism rather than memories and love. Therefore, when I felt the emotion in his voice as he begged me to visit him, I couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable rather than susceptible. I listened intently as he instructed me what he needed me to do. H...