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My first relationship with a guy was to get revenge for bullying my friend but i got lost in it and eventually ruined myself for it

(sorry for bad grammar) last year, we moved out the city into a remote town. my dad transferred us to a religious school and i absolutely hated it. it was a pretty rough time for me because i was isolated and i found it challenging to fit in my new school because i knew no one there. eventually, depression caught onto me and i fell into a state of displacement. despite that, i was immediately friends with the outcast in our classroom (i'm saying this because literally no one wants her to be in their friend group, not to insult her) and i felt oddly connected with her because i know how it feels to be dislodged from society. she became my confidante. in a place where i was surrounded with pretentious smile and social climbing wannabes, she was a breathe of fresh air. we happily discussed about our interests and she was the one who made me embrace the inner weird kid in me. during our lengthy conversations, she mentioned once that the boy in our class had always made fun of him beca...
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I Went Back to My Childhood Park. It Was Completely Gone.

Every childhood has a secret kingdom. Mine was behind a library. When I was a kid, my friends and I would play cricket at the park. But not on the main ground. We had our own spot — at the far end, next to an old library that was always closed. Next to it? A rusted iron gate. And behind that gate? Our world. A perfect little square — walled on three sides. The library on one end, a massive brick wall on the other. Enough space for six boys to play cricket without adults shouting at us. We played there every day. Rain or shine. The brick wall was our enemy. Every time someone hit a six, the ball would fly over. Then came the adventure — climbing that wall. At the top, we'd see someone's house roof. We'd pretend we were explorers, wave at imaginary people, and jump down like heroes. That park was alive. Old people did yoga. Families had picnics. Prayer sessions happened. The grass was always cut short. Then I grew up. Moved away. Life happened. Years later, I went back My he...

My Security Camera Recorded Me Coming Home Twice

I live alone. I've lived alone for almost two years, and until last Tuesday, I'd never had a reason to feel unsafe in my apartment. Last Tuesday, I came home from work at around 6:30 PM. Nothing seemed unusual. I made dinner, watched TV, took a shower, and went to bed. The next morning, I checked my security camera because I was expecting a package. That's when I noticed something strange. There was a recording from 2:14 AM. The camera showed me unlocking my front door. I watched the video twice. It was definitely me. Same clothes I had worn that evening. Same backpack. Same face. The person walked inside, closed the door, and stood there for almost ten seconds. Then they looked directly at the camera. And smiled. I immediately checked my bedroom. Nothing. I checked the locks. Everything was locked. I told myself it was some kind of recording glitch. Then I noticed the timestamp. The footage was from 2:14 AM. I had been asleep in my bed at 2:14 AM. I know because my phone ...

I started spending my lunch breaks in an old cemetery to escape my job. Yesterday, I realized someone has been leaving letters specifically for me.

My office is right next to St. Jude’s—a 19th-century cemetery hidden behind an overgrown iron fence. Six months ago, burned out from staring at spreadsheets, I started sneaking in during my 45-minute lunch break. It was quiet, peaceful, and the only place nearby where no one asked me for anything. Eventually, I picked a spot: an old, flat mossy headstone tucked under an enormous oak tree, completely hidden from the main walking path. The tombstone belonged to a man named Arthur, who died in 1894. For months, it was just my secret spot. I’d eat my sandwich, listen to music, and enjoy the silence. Three weeks ago, I noticed something odd. A tiny, weathered stone was sitting on top of Arthur’s headstone, holding down a folded piece of yellowed paper. Curious, I opened it. Written in black ink was a single line: *"The noise outside the gate never changes, but the silence in here is always different."* I figured it was just poetry left by another quiet visitor or someone visiting...

The night I accidentally walked into an orgy because I wanted my cooler back

A theater friend invited me to her Fourth of July party. I already had plans to see fireworks, but stopped by beforehand, brought drinks, and let her borrow my cooler. We played True American, drank, hung out. Completely normal party. I leave for the fireworks and realize after midnight that my cooler is still there. Cars are outside, lights are on, so I knock. My friend answers the door completely naked. Full disclosure: gay man here. At this point, I had never seen a fully naked woman live and in person. So I’m just like, “Oh. Okay. Hi. I’m just here for my cooler.” She drunkenly goes, “Oh yeah, it’s in the kitchen,” and leads me inside like there is absolutely nothing worth addressing here. I look into the living room. People are fucking on the floor. Shit you not. At no point was I briefed that this was to be an orgy. We get to the cooler, and I start unloading cans while my naked friend tries to help. She bends down. Tits hit me in the face. Okay. I keep unloading. She bends down...

First time taking THC gummy

I bought these THC gummies at a dispensary, and figured I’d use them on the weekends. When I first got them, I took 1mg, and just felt like my limbs were heavy and not much else. So this time, I decided to double the dose, and take 2mg. I thought “I’ll probably just feel even more relaxed.” After about 2 hours, I was laying on one end of the couch, my sister was sitting on the other end telling a story. As she’s telling the story I realize I can’t remember the last sentence she was saying. I didn’t know what was happening, I thought my brain was shutting off and I could be dying. My sister said she looked at my face and I stared blankly at her, she asked “what’s wrong?” And I just started crying hysterically. I could get no words out. She called my dad in, I’m just laying there sobbing. My dad said “it’s just side effects of the THC, you’ll be fine.” My sister said at that time, my heart was pounding so hard she could audibly hear it. My heart was slamming against my ribs. I was convi...

Susan Hot

So you know how Thai restaurants usually have a scale of heat for when you order? Usually ranging from “mild” to “Thai-hot.” Years ago after getting COVID and losing my sense of taste I turned to excessively spicy foods. I built up my tolerance to the point I usually have to ask someone to taste my cooking before I serve it or else I’ll be at the table happily eating while my dinner guests are gasping for breath. So going to a Thai place I always ask for my food “extra Thai hot.” Well one night when trying a new place I asked my server how hot they could make my meal and the server says to me as his face shifts to empathetically dreadful concern “We have a secret spice level named after our owner, Susan. It’s ‘Susan hot.’’’ So ask for my phat phrik khing “Susan hot.” My sever reminds me that there will be no refund if I do not like it and walks to the kitchen to put in my order. I anxiously wait for my meal. At some point the ventilation hoods in the kitchen can no longer contain the ...