I’ve been trying to build my own thing for the last 6 years. While my friends were getting promoted, buying cars, and traveling, I was sitting in my room, staring at failed codes and rejected ideas. Honestly, I was done. I felt like a loser. I felt like I was burdening my family. Today, I sat with my Dad and finally let it out. I told him, "Dad, I can't do this anymore. I think I should just quit and find a normal job. I wasted 6 important years of my life." My Dad, who usually doesn't talk much about emotions, looked at me and said something that hit me harder than any motivational video. He said, "Son, those 6 years weren't wasted, they were invested. After every mistake, you learned something new, right?" I nodded. He continued, "Listen, nothing in this world is stronger than you. What belongs to you will come to you, it’s not going anywhere. You just have to keep working hard. You’ve put 6 years into this... if you step back now, THAT would be ...
I’m not sure when the arguments started. We’d never fought before all this. Never raised our voices, never laid hands on one another. I’d remember our anniversary just as well as she did; the same goes for birthdays on both sides of the family. I miss those days. I miss when she’d treat me like her equal and not as inferior. Back before the secrecy. Before the late nights out. She’d begun coming home from her “girl nights” in the early morning hours, and, instead of crawling into bed next to me, she’d rush to the shower, careful not to make eye contact with me. It was odd the first time. It was heartbreaking on the 7th. So heartbreaking, in fact, that I did something that I’d sworn “wasn’t me” at the beginning of our relationship. I still feel dirty just thinking about it, but I was distraught. I was confused, and I made a mistake. A little slip in judgment. I went through her phone. I know, I know. I’m awful. I’d forsaken not only my girlfriend, but myself as well. Not only did I not...